Sigh Roan and his family are still in Boracay and won't be back till Saturday.

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From: Roan

I may joke around a lot of times.. But I promise u ill love you till d last day of my life. I love you so much kath coz i know mahal na mahal mo rin ako.

8:32pm 4/6/06

Roan's been trying to cheer me up with jokes, trying to make me laugh, because he knows how I've been feeling that he's in an outing with his family. He's been calling me up every so often, sending sweet text messages, going online as much as he can at an Internet cafe.

Today when he went online early in the morning Philippine time, he invited me several times to view his webcam so he can show me the stuff he bought for me -- a sarong (so I can wrap myself in it, he says, and be reminded of him; I'm guessing this is some sort of poncho-lookin' accessory), some native sandals (he says don't worry they'll fit me; does he even remember the size of my feet?), shell necklace, bracelet, and clothes for Lyle (he was worried they were too big, but then said they're better off a bit bigger anyway than to be too small; and that loose shirts are good in the summer).

But I was stubborn and didn't want to view, told him I was busy and to go away. It went that way for about half an hour, but I wouldn't budge. Then he said fine, I'll be back later. I told him never he mind, just go away and have fun. He said he didn't go there to have fun but to watch over Nico and Rociel because his mom wanted them to come; that he didn't even know they were going till last minute. And that he was trying to be there for them and still be with me despite supposedly being there on a family outing, he's been going to the Internet cafe to be with me but that I was making things difficult.

Maybe I am. So what?